I would like to thank you for being there every step of the way for me, always being there for me, being a positive influence in my life. Teaching me how to be a good man, more importantly, a good person. I'd like to thank you for taking time out of your hectic lifestyle to show me the differences between right and wrong, showing me the right paths to take. Thanks for teaching me to play football, fix a car, do all that other stuff you know I love so much. Thanks for being there for me when I was having girl troubles, and for showing me the right ways to do that stuff, you know I couldn't do it on my own. Thank you for just being you and helping me along the way, being a true friend and most importantly a father.
Why the fuck can't this happen? Because my father was always too busy running around with girls my sisters age to give a fuck about us, too busy living his own god damn life and not realizing how fucked up he's making his kids. He was always thinking he could buy his self into our lives with a movie, dinner, or baseball game. Why wasn't he there at all when I needed him? When I was going through shit that I didn't feel comfortable going to my mom with. Where was he? Seriously. I know the answer, but I don't know why. It's too fucking late now, I don't give a shit what he's doing. I got tired of the false promises, the not trying, the throwing us off on his family, the guilting, the trying to turn us against our mom.
I am so close to emailing him that first letter. Oh yea, found his ass on facebook and myspace. He lived down the street from me for a good 2 fucking years. I know I dont' give a shit about him, but he was RIGHT there, at least he could make an effort. Seriously, if I wasn't in Indiana, I'd probably kick his ass right now. I can't handle the shit that's going on in my head because of that fucking guy.
Actually, forget the letter, I just want to send him a big FUCK YOU!
100 HAVE YOU EVERS
1. Made out for more than 3 minutes? Yes
2. Slept in a different bed? yes
3. Made out in a movie theatre? yes
4. made out with 2 different people in one night? nope
5. Thought your cousin was hot? She's a very pretty girl, I wouldn't say hot. :-P
6. Been in love? I dunno
7. Looked at porn in the last three days? sorta. ;-)
8. Taken a shower with the opposite sex? nope
9. Gone over the speed limit? Yes
10. Painted your room? nope
11. Drove a car? yes, driven several. :-O
12. Danced in front of your mirror? yes
13. Gotten a hickey? yes
14. Been dumped? yes
15. Stole money from a friend? nope
16. Gotten in a car with people you just met? yes
17. Been in a fist fight? nope
18. Snuck out of your house? yes
19. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? yes.
20. Been arrested? yes
21. Made out with a stranger? nope
22. Left your house with out telling your parents? yea
23. Had a crush on your neighbor? yes
24. Ditched school to do something more fun? kinda
25. Slept in a bed with a member of the same or opposite sex ? yes
26. Seen someone die? yes
27. Been on a plane? no
28. Kissed a picture? yes
29. Slept in until 3? yea
30. Love someone or miss someone right now? yea
31. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? i have
32. Made a snow angel? yes
33. Played dress up? yes
34. Cheated while playing a game? yes
35. Been lonely in the last week? almost every day
36. Fallen asleep at work/school? Both actually
37. Been to a club? Yes
38. Felt an earthquake? yep
39. Touched a snake? Not by choice
40. Ran a red light? yes
41. Been suspended from school? nope
42. Had detention? yes
43. Been in a car? yes
44. Hated the way you look? i've never liked the way I look
45. Witnessed a crime? yes
46. Been lost? yes
47. Been to the opposite side of the country? yes
48. Felt like dying from embarrassment? yep
49. Cried yourself to sleep? yes
50. Sang karaoke? i have
51. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't do? yes
52. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? yes
53. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? yes
54. Kissed in the rain? yup
55. Sung in the shower? yes
56. Had a dream that you married someone? not that i recall
57. played getting married? not that i recall
58. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? no
59. Ever gone to school partially nude? nope
60. Been addicted?: yes
61. Sat on a roof top? yes
62. Didn't take a shower for a week? yup, had a very bad sunburn
63. Ever been too scared to watch scary movies alone? only one certain movie
64. Played chicken? only in a pool
65. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? yup
66. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? yup
67. Broken a bone? yup
68. Been easily amused? yes
69. Laugh so hard you cry? yes
70. Cheated on a test? nope
71. Forgotten someone's name? yea, and i hate it
72. Blacked out from drinking? yes
73. Played a prank on someone? yea
74. Gone to a late night movie? yea
75. Made love to anything not human? noe
76. Failed a class? yes
77. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? only when I was little
78. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? yea, several times
79. Cheated on a girlfriend/boyfriend? no
80. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? Not this year
81. Thrown strange objects? More than likely
82. Felt like someone? I am someone!
83. Thought about running away? yes
84. Ran away? sorta
85. Had detention and not attend it? I was too scared to get into anymore trouble
86. Made parents cry? yes
87. Cried over someone? yes
88. Owned more than 5 sharpies? yes
89. Dated someone more than once? yes
90. Have a dog? Not now, but I've had some
91. Own an instrument? I've had several throughout my life, now I have 4 guitars
92. Been in a band? Been in several
93. Drank 25 sodas in a day? probably not
94. Broken a cd? yup
95. Shot a gun? a BB gun
96. Been on myspace for more than 5 hours? probably when I was looking up everyone i knew
98. Have a major crush on someone right now? nope
99. Have a religion? i'm between religions
100. Thought about what people would say at your funeral? nope, don't like to think about it
Bold the things you’ve never done.
Played a video game
Ate a big mac
Played on a sports team
Puked on purpose
Gotten chicken pox
Had the measles
Worn a thong
Been to a party
Said I love you
Been bitten by a mosquito
Had a job
Driven a car
Been in a car wreck
Taken a naked pic
Gotten a tattoo
Kicked a guy in the balls
Screamed til my throat hurt
Broken a nail
Shot a gun
Been out of the United States
Ran a mile
Kissed a member of the same sex
Sung in the shower
Been to church
Failed a grade
Gotten an F on my report card
Been to Florida
Been to California
Been to Texas
Been to Oklahoma
Been to New York
Bought something from Hollister
Painted my fingernails black
Held hands with someone
Broke the dress code
Lost a library book
Ate raw cookie dough
Been to a concert
Been in a fight
Smacked someone’s ass
Filled out the 1000 question survey
Taken a survey quite like this one before
I just had a YouThink dream/nightmare. :-O
1. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
ehh, a little kiss maybe.
2. What song describes your relationships?
I have no idea.
3. How much does your dog/dogs weigh?
I have no dogs, I have cats. I'm gonna guess 2-8 lbs.
5. Ever waxed your legs?
no, but I've spilled wax on them.
7. Who have you talked to most today?
Been on the phone longest with lita, probably talked to my mom the most though.
10.Color of your shirt?
12. Who's on speed dial 5?
13. What color is your background on your computer mainly?
14. Do you wish on 11:11?
I used to, not anymore though.
15. Good advice if you ever go camping?
Follow the instructions when you put up the tent, nothing like it blowing over in the rain and getting soaked.
16. Are you a bad influence?
Some people call me that. :-P
17.What color are your eyes?
18. Would you rather have your name or your siblings name?
Ehh, mine I guess. Although, I don't like it.
19. Would you do anything for someone?
There's a few people I would do anything for.
20. Have you ever been called a whore?
yea, but not seroiusly
21. favorite color?
22. Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
I use way too many probably.
23. What song is on?
Keith Jarrett- All the things you are
24. Are your grades good?
They were when I was in school
25. Do you have any friends with benefits?
27. Does your best friend have a myspace?
28. Who's page did you last visit?
29. Last time you went out to lunch?
With my job, I'm always going out for lunch. :-P
30. Do you watch the Gilmore Girls?
31. Have you ever enjoyed listening to Jack Johnson?
32. Have you ever seen or enjoyed watching the O.C.?
33. Do you have one or more Britney Spears C.D.s?
34. Which radio stations are your favorites?
101.1 for the mornings. 105.5 if I'm in a alt rock mood. NPR the rest of the time.
36. Still have pictures of your Ex?
37. Do you have a song by Ozzy Osbourne in your library?
I have quite a few
38. Alanis Morisette?
I have a few of her songs I believe
39. Do you watch Family Guy Regularly?
Whenever I catch it on
40. King of the Hill?
Whenever I catch it on
41. Do you read trashy romance novels often?
43. Do you sing obnoxiously in the car?
Everytime I sing it's obnoxious.
44. Do you sing obnoxiously in the shower when no one's home?
45. Have you ever watched a little kid's show?
[The Necessary Love Questions That Aren't So Necessary]]
47. Did you draw pictures for your first crush back in elementary school?
nope, never did that.
48. Have you ever liked a girl/boy but didnt ask her/him out because you were afraid?
all the time
50. Have you ever spent over an hour thinking about nothing but your crush?
ehh, 45 minutes maybe
51. Have you ever liked someone solely for their appearance?
52. Do you eat all the servings in the food groups on a daily basis?
not at all
53. Are you ever a freak about cleanliness or organization?
Nope, kinda wish i was htough, I could find more stuff
55. Do you know how to knit?
56. Do you have a cell phone or iPod with a patterned cover?
58. Do you keep a diary or journal online?
59. When you open your closet, what is the dominant color?
uhh, blue or white
[[Truly Unusual This or That Questions]]
60. Baskin Robbins or Coldstone?
I'll go with Baskin, never been to colstone
61. Physics or chemistry?
62. Earphones or headphones?
63. pink or teal?
64. Earrings or a ring?
65. Commitment or casual dating?
66. Harry Potter or Lord of the Rings or Star Wars?
67. Fly or road trip?
Road Trip definitely
68. Starbucks or Caribou?
Caribou? I'll go with starbucks
69. What is your favorite Disney movie?
aladdin (I'll go with that too, good movie. :)
70. How much jewelry do you own?
Couple of necklaces, couple of rings
71. Have you ever bought clothing at Sears?
Yes, Just bought a pair of pants there last week.
fucking weather. 1:30 am, I have to be up at 6 am. Damn limb hit my window. grrrr.